Purpose

It's something I've been struggling to understand with my life as of late. Sure, good job but I'm currently getting scolded for work ethic (which I admit, I haven't been working as hard as I should of at my game, but part of that is the new field/learning too. Another issue is that I don't follow-up with people's e-mails and calls promptly. I get work from someone, I file it to get worked on because like 5 other people need shit too, and I respond when I do it. That's gotta change.)

Need about one more year of serious work to get my web design cert and then decide on what to do with it from there or wipe the slate clean and go into auto mechanics/Engineering or potentially game design. Wondering if not finishing it now so I can simply rest after work is a good idea or not currently, plus I have the job to worry about since I'm practically on-call 24/7 as a temp worker. Gotta get bills paid too, so adding onto it might not be the best of ideas.

And then it hits me. What the fuck am I doing with my life? Where am I going with all this? Do I even care about this job? And should I be doing something else? I've never really had any strong interests outside of music (DJing), technology (Computer guy, but more senior user then professional), and art (used to be an illustrator, but I felt myself die with it after HS. ), and even those I can't really see myself taking a full career into. And when I think long and hard about it, being a college dropout who's worked just about all his teens to current I really feel like I'm just shuffling my feet again to a beat I get tired of repeating.

I've currently been reading some self-help materials, as you know. Not only with attraction, but also spiritual finding. I think I've come to an understanding of God and how we are all related to him, but that's an entirely different convo. See = http://www.amazon.com/Mans-Eternal-Q.../dp/0876122314 for details.

I think of the military, but I know I'd come back changed in all the wrong ways. Peace Corps, but I'm an evil bastard who would probably just use that op to hit on foreign women. Job Corps, but I'm like WTF can they really offer? That's for drugged out kids and serfs. lol

Have any of you ever just felt like you were desperately in search of a pause button to sort yourself out?

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoQb8vb4blA

Yep. That's called growing up, my friend.

Look at me, for example: 35 years old, two kids, and I work as a Medical Technologist. Money is good, the hours at my job are decent... And if I run one more fucking lab test, I'm going to go on a multi-state shooting spree. It's a means, not an end.

Same thing with what you're doing. You're paying the bills, and you're working on advancing yourself. You just need to figure out what you're advancing yourself towards. Unfortunately, that only comes with time.

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wait till you get 44 and you realize that any chances of being a business whiz kid have escaped out the window.......and that time you were gonna land the super model.....ain't gonna happen......what about getting that mansion....naw that ain't gonna happen either...

How 'bout settling for a house in a city and an old car to "fix on" during the weekends

quarter life crisis.

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Yeah, I know it's just a matter of time, but I'm just finding it a constant reminder of this huge gap in my life that I have yet to fill in my life and I admittedly have a bit of self-doubt and conscience towards it all.

Ultimately, I suppose I just want to make sure I make the right moves in my life. But I don't really know which ones to make, other then "make more money".

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoQb8vb4blA

lol, is it very common or am I just being a bitch about it all?

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoQb8vb4blA

supper common, man. At least amongst lots of people I know from about the 23-25 mark.

I had a little flip out about a year and a half ago myself.

Just keep making decisions and moving in the direction that seems most like forward to you at the time.

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All kidding aside DAK

Kids.....Kids are your purpose. Ask anyone that has them. Raising Children is the most rewarding thing you do in life.

Dooooont listen to this guy.

Not only is he old, but he doesnt even have a mansion.

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True

and true

I forgot to add, "Fulfilling"

Honestly, remember that old idea that you should do what you love and you'll always be happy?

Yeah, that's bullshit. You do what you can deal with, and enjoy the fruits of your labor. I don't particularly enjoy what I do all that much, it's not like I'm throwing a party over it. In a couple years though, I won't have a boss to report to, won't have an office to report to, will be making my own hours, and making even more money. Is the shit I'll be doing interesting? Not really in the least bit. However, I'll have lots of time to myself, and lots of disposable income to do all of the things I want to do.

I wouldn't focus so much on finding that rewarding career that you think will make you happy. You know what makes me happy? Modding cars, fishing, playing instruments, and drinking beers on the beach. I'm not going to be a mechanic, and no one is going to pay me to fish, jam out, or drink. So, I put up with something that isn't terribly exciting or entertaining because the pay checks are good. In the meantime, enjoy what you've got and have as much fun as you can.

Happiness is all about the little things man. Having a good beer, meeting a cool girl, driving down a badass road, eating a good meal. There is no eternal key to being happy all the time. Even when you've got the things you want, you still want more, and you still feel the same.

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^seconded. Also, it doesn't hurt if you can learn to take a little enjoyment from working hard. I used to hate working, but having done tons of it over the last 3 years, I've come to feel very satisfied when I work hard at something. I went through what you're going through last year. I had no fucking clue, couldn't decide on a career, etc. I bascially just decided that, because I'm insanely curious and have to learn everything, school was a good choice, and having jumped back in to it, what I should be doing has become obvious. So ya, do what you like, work hard at what you have, and it'll come. Just be patient and keep your head up

Yup, sure did!! I felt like I was just going through he motions to get the bills paid, but that my life had no direction. There were so many things I wanted to do but always said, "I'll do it later,,," Next thing I knew I was in my late 30's and hadn't done a damned thing!!!

That's when I went back to school,,, just graduated last Thursday!! Whoo Hoo!! And now I'm working a job that I love, make six-times the money I used to and can look back over my shoulder as I drive away and feel like I am a part of something good in life. I wish I had done it sooner, but it's NEVER too late!!

Take a moment and reflect on what you need to do to give your life direction,,, what you need to do to make you feel like you are a part of something good,,,

We all need goals or else we're just a leaf floating along the river of life,,, Watch out for that waterfall!!

Now that's just morbid.

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