It's looking like my aunt (and godmother) will be losing her battle with stage four breast cancer in a day or two.

It really sucks for a few reasons:

First of all, it means I'm losing a big part of my family, I lived with her while going to school last semester. She's 46, has two kids, one has Asperger syndrome, but thankfully he's maturing finally, at 15. Her daughter is 13, so that sucks, too. Her husband, is good enough, I guess, more dad, less father; more himself, less family.

And I work this weekend. If she passes, I'll have to take another occurrence, which I cannot afford. I visited her earlier in the week, when she was almost dead, but had a small rally.

So now.... here I am, remembering the good times, cursing myself for not visiting enough, and being pissed I can't be there.

Fuck.

Sorry to hear about that as well. My grandmother is in a similar situation right now (3 brain tumors). Cancer has to be the worst way to die...

Don't curse yourself. She understands you love her and will miss her.

Sorry to hear that.

Don't curse yourself. She understands you love her and will miss her.

Well put.

sorry to hear bud...

You have my sympathies. :(

My boss's wife recently died due to breast cancer. He's got four children all under 10.

Remembering the good times is all you can do. She might not be there physically, but a part of her will stay in your memories.

She isn't dead quite yet. I visited her Saturday and wept (internally), Sunday I wept externally, alone. She is just here/there.

She spoke to me. Told me she loved me.

I told her I'd see her later, as I never say goodbye to a passing loved one.

She visited me in a dream Sunday, but her body is still here, barely.

I really need to talk to the GF, she's been such a huge support for me. This has been such a tumultuous time for me.

*crying now*

OBTW, I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I went through this same thing with my father and there is no easy way to deal with it. I wish there was, but there just isn't. The only thing I could do is let him know that I loved him and that I appreciated the time that we had together. When he passed the only comfort I could find was that he no longer was in pain and was hopefully in a better place and watching over my mother and I. It still, to this day, hits me every now and again and I find myself consumed with heartache, but I realize that there is nothing I can do about it and I know in my heart that he wouldn't want me to feel that way so I suck it up and move on. All you can do now is to be strong, not only for her, but for your family and yourself as well. I found a lot of strength, for myself personally, in realizing that. It doesn't make it any easier, but it helps to get through the hard times. I also found a lot of strength in talking about the good times, both with my father and with my family. It's hard to do sometimes when you're in the middle of the bad times, but it helps everyone involved, even if only momentarily. I wish you and your aunt the best and hope this helps a little to ease some of the pain you're going through right now.

I lost my dad a few months after his 50th birthday to Renal failure, horrible way to watch someone die. You have to get past it, remember the good times. It will be hard learning to adjust without them and to this day I still will be working on a car or fishing or boating and think, "Damn I wish the old man was here for this". You'll make it man just keep your head up, the best thing you can do right now is be there for her. Two things you have to do in life, be born and die. Unfortunately the latter of the two isnt always so nice.

It will be hard learning to adjust without them and to this day I still will be working on a car or fishing or boating and think, "Damn I wish the old man was here for this".

I do this very same thing. I plan on building some cars that my dad always wanted to build, but never got the chance to. It's sort of my way of still hanging out with my dad.

This place has changed... for the better I suppose.

At Approximately 2:30 AM central, Cynthia Rose Marie passed at the age of 46, she will be missed.

wut? age 46?

At Approximately 2:30 AM central, Cynthia Rose Marie passed at the age of 46, she will be missed.

Sorry for your loss.

My condolences Wot.

wut? age 46?

Yeah, 46.

We just lit a candle here in the beautiful evening for her.

peace

We just lit a candle here in the beautiful evening for her.

peace

Thanks. Stage IV breast cancer, came from remission to hell three years ago.

sorry to hear that bud, my condolences

(((hug))) for you i know how difficult this time is, my condolences to you and your family

sorry to hear that, Dave. Losing family sucks big-time, I hope you're doin ok

Yeah, I'm sure a lot of people are laughing, because she's "just an aunt." But we had a great connection, I was her first nephew, and when my uncle went to Desert Storm, I stayed with her for Christmas. I got a Sprioscope.

And then when I went back to college, I was staying at her house, and took her to all appointments and things. Miss her a ton.

why would people be laughing because of that??? :( it is a horrible thing to watch someone who you are close to go like that, i was unable to be with my grandparents when they passed and i still haven't been able to go and see there graves.

we all had favorite aunts. mine died many years ago. she summoned me on her last day. i never came to her. they didnt tell me its her last day...just sick and shell be alright.

Im sorry Dave, Im going thru the same thing right now. Be there for the family as much as you can, its a trying time. Keep your head up.